Beginning of August...

I've been really worry, upset, depress and all sorts of mix emotions since August. The only reason I can think of is that I've come to realise that the date for me to go home is getting sooner (and obviously I'm not looking forward to it at all). I've tried my best to be as happy and enjoy it as much as I can, but I just can't. I can't stop thinking and imagining my life after I'm back in Hong Kong. This is sad, I should treasure the rest of my days in U.K. and enjoying the most of it while I can but I can't at the moment, I just feel depress, I hope it won't turn into depression. Recently, I don't want to go to work, I just want to be at home and spend more time with Kit. I hate myself being like this but sometimes I just can't help it, I can't stop myselg thinking about it every now and again.

I tried not letting anyone know and just pretend to be happy (and didn't want to write it in my blog), but I guess it is a good thing just to say it out, at least I know why I behave like this. Going home for good, this just adds the weight on me and I can already imagine when time comes even closer, more stress out I will be. I can just see myself in such position.

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