[轉載] 生命的旅程

在我們所有認識的人當中：
有人在生命的旅程中與我們短暫的相會。
有人成了我們一生的朋友。
有人則稍作停留，在我們的心中留下美麗的烙印。
有人以認識你為榮。 有人在想著你。 有人在關心你。
有人想念你 有人想和你說話。
有人希望你不要陷入困境中。
有人感謝你曾經提供的幫助 有人想握你的手。
有人希望你事事順心 有人希望你快樂。
有人希望你能發現他的存在。
有人因你的成功而為你喝采。
有人希望給你一個禮物。
有人認為你是一個禮物。
有人希望你不要太冷、不要太熱。
有人想要擁抱你。
有人愛你。 有人敬佩你的堅強。
有人想念著你且一想到你就會心一笑。
有人想靠在你的肩膀。
有人想跟著你走，享受許多的樂趣。
有人想保護你。
有人願意為了你做任何事。
有人想得到你的寬恕 有人想和你一起笑。
有人記得你，並希望你就在他們身邊。
有人需要知道你對他的愛是絕對的。
有人想告訴你，他有多在乎你。
有人希望和你一起分享他的夢想。
有人想擁你入懷。
有人希望你擁他入懷。
有人珍惜你的靈魂。
有人因為你而希望時間就此停住。
有人因你的友誼和愛而感謝天。
有人等不及想見你。
有人愛你給他們的感覺。
有人想和你在一起。
有人希望你知道他們在身邊支持你。
有人很高興你是他的朋友。
有人希望做你的朋友。
有人整夜睡不著地想念你。
有人希望你能注意到他。
有人想要更了解你。
有人想要接近你。
有人相信你有人信任你。
有人需要你寄給他這封信。
有人需要你的支持。
有人需要你相信他 有人會因看到這封信而哭。
有人希望成為你的朋友。
有人因為你「千里送鵝毛」而感動。
有時候你一定忘記了，其實…一直有一個人在你背後默默的關心你。

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Still got 20 more days to go!! Time to reflect...

Time just go by very quickly, basically I'm counting down every single day and just hope it won't go that quick. There is just 20 more days before I'm heading back to Hong Kong, 3 more days before I leave the hotel. I know that these (leaving U.K and the hotel) will come very soon, but it just seems to me that the day is within reachable distance now.

I know from time to time I do complain about my job, especially my rota and my "nice" supervisor. However, when it is coming close to the end, I know I will miss it, since it is my first job that I've been working for such a long time, plus it is a full time job too. When I think about it, everyone has been really nice to me. I really like the people there, the only thing I am upset about is the management. I'm really thankful that my manager decided to employ me and allow me to gain the experience I need.

I still recall those days where I don't mind working 9 shifts straight without any day off, and still I wouldn't complain about it at all. I really enjoy the time when she is still around as my manager. However, thinking about it, things changed since she left the desk and since my "nice" supervisor started to work in reception. I just couldn't enjoy working behind that desk anymore.

At the moment, all we talk about is her, it just seems like there is a campaign in the hotel, where everyone isn't help her out or doing any favour to her just because her attitude problems. I can foreseen that there will be a lot more problems in the future, especially when my manager comes back after her maternity leave.

Part of me thinking thank god that I don't have to face it and stand her anymore. However, on the other hand, I was thinking too bad I would miss all these good stuff. I just think she has a major attitude problems where it causes a lot of other managers and supervisors doesn't want to work or help her at all.

The only problem is she didn't realise it at all and she still thinks she is very good at her job. She got ambition, which is a good thing, but the only problem is she is willing to sacrifice others to achieve her ambitions. I think this won't work in nowadays, she needs to work as a team in order to show others that she got the managerial skills to manage the team and able to proceed higher.

Anyways, I wouldn't be able to see this, which to be honest, I'm not that sad about it. At least I can leave all these gossips behind. I tried so hard to avoid all these gossips during the time I work in the hotel, especially knowing that our hotel are quite different, not very small but very close and a lot of gossips.

3 more shifts and I'm out of there. I will be having my leaving-do on Sunday and I think I will have another one next week with other people from different departments. And I think I will be very busy next week, where I am really starting to pack. I have to get most of the things sorted as I will be going to London the week after. I won't have time to do anymore packing on that week. Spending 2 nights in London trying to do my shopping and visit some friends.

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[轉載] 不能給任何承諾就放掉她吧!

我覺得不只男生要去替女生想想, 可是相反地, 女生也替男生去想一下仔的人生。 如果相方都不可以給對方任何承諾, 不如就放了對方, 那大家都可能會幸福一點。

女生真的要多愛自己一點， 男生也請替女生們想想，不能給任何承諾就放掉她吧!別讓彼此浪費了自己寶費的青春!!

給那些和固定的伴侶相處了三年以上的好友們。

女人並不是愛逼婚，只是女人青春有限，看看後再想想妳(你)要的是什麼。
鏡子裡的我，好美。

臉上畫了濃濃的，身上穿著夢想中的白紗，我今天像個童話故事裡的公主。
親朋好友一個個圍到我身邊給我祝福，此時的我應該是感覺幸福。

怎麼，我的笑容裡隱藏著幾分的落寞？

我從來沒想過我會嫁給你之外的男人。 一直以為我們會結婚，這輩子只為你披婚紗，非你不嫁。 我等了一年又一年，主動開口向你求婚了幾次。

第一年。
我認為應該可以談談我們的未來。
我想想，也對，確實太快了點，我同意。

第二年。
我說，身邊的朋友一個個都準備結婚，和我同一個時間談戀愛的朋友甚至都懷孕了， 我們也該是時候了。
你說，是差不多了，明年吧！我感動得哭了。

然後，你逃了。說自己不夠好，不能給我承諾，無法許我未來。

再去找一個，忘了我吧！你說。
我的心碎了，碎片扎滿了我的全身，竟開始後悔自己太過衝動，或許，我真的給你太大的壓力。

如果你不想結婚，就算了，沒關係，不要離開我。我半哀求你。
你走了半年又回來，我仍然站在原地等你沒走開。

第三年。
我沒敢再提，倒是你開了口。
其實，我真的很想同妳結婚，只是沒有錢。
你說結婚要錢，我知道，而且是筆不小的數目，沒錢確實不可能辦場好好的婚禮，誰都不想草率結婚將來再遺憾，我能體會。

聽你這麼說，我就感到很辛慰。我又感動得哭了。

第四年。
我支支吾吾、欲言又止不知怎麼開口。
你說要等事業穩定才有心情想其他的事。
我於是沉默，繼續等。

第五年。
你說想再去讀書，也許出國留學，也許在國內讀大學。
大學一讀又是好幾年，我心想著，沒有說話，只是皺著眉頭揪著心，無奈也無力。

我曾經懷疑兩個人在一起一定要結婚嗎？
就這樣互相照顧一輩子，行不行？
最重要的是，兩個人能牽手互相扶持、互相照顧到老，不是嗎？
也許這麼認為，我會想開一些。
不認為自己在等待什麼，而是認定這便是我們相守的方式，會愛得快樂一點。

就這樣認了，默默地跟了你，又過了一年又一年。
好友勸我試著接受其他追求者。
我卻堅定的告訴她，要就只嫁你，要不就一輩子不結婚。
我當時的樣子真的很篤定，也一直堅信著我對你不變的愛。

在朋友的生日Party上認識他，一個忠厚老實大我五歲的男人，是朋友的同事。
Party後的隔幾天，朋友約了我吃飯，他也在， 朋友為我們互相介紹認識。
他說很欣賞妳，想進一步認識妳，只是那天太吵了，沒辦法好好同妳聊聊。』朋友對我說。

我和他相視點點頭，互相給對方一個善意的微笑。

飯後，朋友藉口有事先走，請他順便送我回家。
『希望我不會嚇到妳。』走在往停車場的敦化北路上，他先開口說 。
『不會。』我對他微微笑，
『只是…我必須事先告知你，我已經有一個交往了八年的男朋友囉 ！』
『哦？』他也笑笑， 『說我認識妳沒目的是騙人的，不過，沒辦法談愛情至少 >能保有友情吧！人和人之間其實也可以很單純的。』

聽他這麼說，我鬆了一口氣，也拉近了我們之間的距離。

單純的朋友關係，反而更容易使人打開心扉，毫無顧忌的聊開來，相處起來也比較自然 。
『有時候，我在想，如果情侶都把對方當成只是一個單純普通的朋友，而不是貼上男朋友或女朋友的標籤，這樣，在一起也許會更快樂、更舒服。』我頗有感觸的說。

『相愛容易，相處難，美麗的愛情其實只是童話，現實的愛情往往都不是那般夢幻。』
嗯，而且還會傷人。』我附和著說。
電話裡的我們常常這麼討論著，有時因為看法不同互相爭辯，有時又有如找到知己一般的契合。

『妳和妳男友為什麼交往這麼久還不結婚？』他小心翼翼的問。
入秋的淡水多了幾分寒意，我拉著他幫我披在身上的外套，半縮著身子。
『唉…』我重重的嘆口氣， >『他總是用各種理由對我解釋還不是時候。』
『妳就這麼一直等下去？除非妳也不想結婚。』
『我其實很渴望有一個自己的家，聽朋友不時說著自己的老公、小孩，雖然嘴裡抱怨著 ，臉上卻露出幸福小女人的模樣，我真的好羨慕，我知道，王子與公主不可能永遠過著幸福快樂的日子，儘管婚姻生活不是每天都甜蜜幸福，可是起碼也得親自嚐過那其中的酸甜苦辣，這輩子才不會留有遺憾。』我陶醉的說。

他靜靜的凝望著我，專心聽我說著一字一句。
『那麼…』他深呼吸一口氣，
『你願不願意也給我一個機會，我也和妳一樣，羨慕著周圍的朋友說著自己老婆、小孩的驕傲模樣，我也不想這段人生有遺憾。』他認真的看著我。
『我以為你…』我不知怎麼回應他的突然。
『我知道，妳以為我真的放棄對妳的企圖，只要妳還未婚，我就還有希望，不是嗎？ 我從來都沒放棄，我真的喜歡妳，並且是理性的。』
『怎麼可能…』我無法置信的愣在原地。
『我可是跟妳學的，妳比我愛得更久。』
他輕拍我的背，呵呵地乾笑兩聲，
『我不會逼妳的，如果嚇到妳，就當我開玩笑好啦！』

那晚，我失眠，在床上翻來覆去想著他的話。
其實，有好幾次我被他的好感動，有好幾次我被他為我所做的事動心，我不是沒有感覺 。

然而，我無法因此就毅然決然的放棄我和你快十年的感情。
只是現在，我早已分不清，不放棄，是因為依然深愛你，還是因為不甘心。
愛情，經過時間層層過濾，最後只殘留下不甘心的渣滓。
時間越久，殘留越多。 >而我們卻都誤以為是因為愛，所以才放不了手。
我最後一次開口向你求婚，你一臉為難，說你還沒有心理準備。
『最近，有個男人向我求婚。』我淡淡地說。
『那妳怎麼說？』你沒有任何的緊張，反應平淡。
『我想看你怎麼說，我們總不能真的一直這樣下去，我想和你有個家，和你生個小孩， 婚姻不僅只是一種形式，更是愛的一種延續，你懂嗎？』
我平靜的說出我的想法。
你嘆口氣，皺起眉，沒有說話，我感覺得到，你的心裡掙扎的厲害 。
『如果你開口要我留下，我會毫不遲疑的繼續等，如果你要我別答應他，我會毫不留戀的回絕他，可是你並沒有，或者，我們都該再問問自己，愛，還存不存在。』

轉身後的我忍不住哭泣，我知道我還是捨不得，只是這次，我真的不會再回頭。
『妳這樣嫁給他，會不會太衝動？結婚雖然是人生必然，也不能為了想結婚而結婚。』

好友聽到我要結婚的消息，又是替我高興又是擔憂的說。
『用了十年的時間，我始終等不到我所愛的人，卻遇見了願意給我安定的人，我用了十年的時間去愛一個人，我想用下一個十年好好被愛。』我真的累了，愛得好累。

我呆望著閃動在眼前的鑽石戒指。
『你難道沒有想過，我也許不愛你。』
『那妳討厭我嗎？』 >『怎麼會。』
『喜歡我嗎？』 >『嗯，有一點，不過，不知道是哪種喜歡。』
『那還有什麼好懷疑的，妳既不討厭我，又滿喜歡我，這就夠啦！重要的是，我也喜歡妳，並且會用心對妳好，一輩子好好的照顧妳。』
『也許，我還愛著那個人呢？』
『妳知道夫妻之間是靠感情維繫，而不是愛情，愛情，只是一時的絢麗，我當然知道妳還愛著他，忘記一個人或一段感情並不是件容易的事，甚至妳一輩子也無法忘記，但，當我們成為生命共同體時，那段曾經只會是妳的回憶，就算是偶然想起，妳只會淡淡地一笑置之，除非，我讓妳後悔。』

我抱緊他放聲大哭，把這些日子以來壓抑的情緒好好釋放。
他輕撫我的頭並輕聲安慰著我，『傻瓜，別想那麼多，要做個快樂的新娘子。』

偶然經過唱片行，聽到裡頭正播放著楊乃文的『祝我幸福』，我呆立在原地，腳像被鐵釘釘住似的，無法動彈，不自覺的淚流滿面，顧不得路過行人的狐疑眼神和好奇目光。

這歌娓娓唱出我當下的心情，描述的非常貼切。
是他的愛和包容，給我力量，我才能將你放。
但是我的心卻還是有隱隱的刺痛，和一種說不上來的遺憾，每當我想起時。
人生，或許真的無法事事圓滿，總會有個缺口， 讓人更珍惜現在所擁有。

結婚的日子一天一天的逼近，
婚前籌備工作也慢慢地準備完成，不該再想那麼多。
招待人員進來請每個人到會場就坐，並要我準備出場。
大夥喧鬧散去，房間裡頓時一片寂靜無聲。
獨自看著鏡中的自己，真希望你能看到我穿白紗的模樣，你會怎麼讚美呢？

〝叩！叩！〞 >想得出神的我，被突然的敲門聲驚醒，是擔任伴娘的好友。
她將捧在手上的好大一束花遞給我，
『喏！有人要我轉交給妳的。』
我接過花，看到花上叉著一張淡藍色小卡片，是你，熟悉的字跡只留下『祝妳幸 >福』 簡單的四個字。

我的淚又止不住漱漱地流下。
你的祝福，填補了我心裡的那個缺口，我會得到真的幸福。

不要因為也許會改變 就不肯說那句美麗的誓言
不要因為也許會分離 就不敢求一次傾心的相遇...
遇見的時候，或許下著雨，或許放著晴，我們有同樣的慌亂，同樣的驚喜。
城市很大，世界也不小，我們卻從來沒有想過相遇的問題，好像相遇這件事情，理直氣壯得毫無道理。

你想過嗎？
為什麼億億萬萬人擁擠的藍色小星球裡，能夠遇見？
我們小時候喜歡聽媽媽說童話，小小美人魚浮上海面，王子的船就在同一時同一刻經過，白馬王子在森林裡閒晃，不小心就遇上了美麗的白雪公主，遇見好像總是那麼巧，妳在，我也在，在同一時、同一刻、同個地方，我們看見彼此，我們遇見。

日劇「那些日子以來」，最後主角們一起放著結著長長的白線流，為了紀念，這個時候有這個人、有那個人。

可是很多時候我們的遇見卻都是缺少告別和紀念，相遇過後，像十字路口擦身而過的路人，連再見也沒有說出口，只留下錯身時耳邊的風。

長大以後，才發現遇見是不容易的事情。
一點也不容易呀！

有時候好想好想跟誰相遇，好想好想再度遇見某個人，卻天涯海角不再相見。
所以相遇的時候，可不可以好好珍惜呢？
可不可以有一點感激和溫柔，然後，記得，要說再見喔！
微笑的遇見，微笑地說再見。

女人等的到底是什麼?
其實女人們真的蠻傻的
願意拿青春來做賭注
總是天真的以為
自己無私的付出可以換來日後的幸福
以及男人的疼愛
但是.....
真正成功的又有幾個呢

嚐過愛情的傷痛之後
似乎對愛情的看法已改變
當一個女人身陷情海
愛對方勝過自己時
我想在這場愛情遊戲中她就已經注定輸了
因為....她已經把決定權交給男方

其實愛情是要雙方互相維持的不是嗎
當你一昧的只為對方想 >那麼這個天平就偏了

到底愛情是什麼
為何要因為愛對方而把自己推向劣勢呢
樣樣事情都以對方優先
反而忘了自己呢

所以.........
女人們.......要堅強喔...女人不是弱者

而男人們
若是你發現身邊有個這麼愛你的女人
千萬記的要好好珍惜她
倘若連這麼愛你的女人你都不知道珍惜的話
我想.......
你應該會抱憾終生吧

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[轉載] 愛，一輩子不變？

每對熱戀中的情人都渴望一生一世山盟海誓，但承諾了一輩子，就真的可以幸福美滿了嗎？

人的心思，大概是最難捉摸也最難預估的，有時候，也許是一件事、一個觸發、一個領悟，就可以改變一個人的思想，雖然不至於讓一個人徹頭徹尾轉了性子，卻也可能讓一個人的行為與之前有了差異。

說不定，就這麼一秒的瞬間，你可能更愛情人，也可能發現到好像不那麼愛了。愛，是怎麼一回事？

愛一個人，是一種當下的感覺。這一刻的感覺能不能持續到永久，誰能夠很肯定地拍胸脯保證？

總以為，今天愛，不代表明天還愛；明天還愛，不代表後天還要愛。

當日子一天天過去，愛的感覺可能日益增長，自然也可能日漸消褪。

所以，誰能保證愛是不會變的呢？在這個世界裡，人與人的相遇愈來愈頻繁，似乎只要一個「機緣巧合」，就有了相戀的可能。而也許在相愛之後，慢慢地發現了彼此的不適合，漸漸地把愛磨損，到最後，不愛了。 一直都以為，愛是不會變的...

或許，人心會變，感受會變。但是，因為愛會變，就決定因噎廢食地不想愛了嗎？

那未免又太過消極了！沒錯，愛是會變的，然而，可能變好，可能變壞。聰明的你，想讓愛有怎樣的變化？ 正因為愛會變，人必須學習更成熟地去處理自己心情上的變化；因為愛會變，人必須懂得去經營愛情，讓愛歷久彌堅。

當你已經盡了最大的努力，卻發現愛依然殘酷地有了改變，那麼也沒有什麼好遺憾的了，反正別人不愛你，你還可以愛自己。

懂得體會愛的善變，慢慢學著去適應愛所帶來的一切，當愛隨著時間改變時，你也必須學著時間而有所成長，如此一來，你才能勇敢去面對因為愛所帶來的任何衝擊，甚至如魚得水。所以，學著去接受愛是會變的，敞開心胸去擁抱愛的善變，那麼，你將會發現，不管愛怎樣改變，你都可以保有完整的自我，不讓愛的多變深刻地傷了你。

最後，你會發現，與其祈禱「不要變」，不如讓自己隨愛而變，當愛消褪時，適時地添柴加溫；當愛發燒時，適當地緩和兩人的激情。

讓愛可以恆久地持續下去，才是真正懂得愛的人。

一生總有幾次如初戀般的情感，每一段無論是多少歲數的愛情際遇。總是會有一方生變在這世上，很少人可以完全保證自己永不變心。因為人與人的際遇、緣份...都是微妙，也都是令人有遲來的感覺。對感情也是如此，不一定要彼此不變，有時曾經真心的相待過，其感動與感受，不會輸給長久卻是乏味的相守。

只要曾經有過如此單純而喜悅的一段，對於人生，已是滿足！

隨便吧！不要去牽強任何一段情感，懂得隨愛而愛，因為曾經真實短暫的有過不要空虛的長久！
真正的愛，是在能愛的時候，懂得珍惜；真正的愛，是在無法愛的時候，懂得放手；因為，放手才是擁有一切。

願你：在珍惜的時候，好好去愛；在放手的時候，好好祝福。

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[轉載] 愛上一個人，是一種習慣

你習慣他的呵護，習慣他的溫柔，習慣他的淘氣，習慣他的笑容
甚至在不知不覺中，你習慣用他的方式微笑，用他的方式溫柔
你們彼此互相依賴，依賴著這甜蜜的習慣

每天固定的，你也習慣在特定時間聽到電話鈴聲響起
你用最溫柔的聲音期待他的回應
但當傳來的聲音不是他時，你總是會有那麼一點點的失望
因為你依賴著那甜蜜的習慣

然後有一天你們分手了，你難過、傷心、失望與不捨
因為你還是一樣依賴著那習慣
但是你卻必須捨棄「習慣」的權利
你不再有權利習慣他的呵護、溫柔、淘氣與笑容

於是你有了新的習慣
你開始習慣想到他時流著眼淚悼念過去的記憶
你開始習慣每天睡前不再有他的耳語
你開始習慣每天日落前站在窗前看著夕陽沉默不語
你開始習慣

直到有一天，你忙得忘了這些習慣
你不再習慣流淚
不再習慣對著夕陽發呆
你才猛然發現很久、很久沒有想起他的溫柔了
你甚至有些忘了他的樣子
模模糊糊的
你只記得他曾經有著那樣好看的笑容
不過，都已經是模模糊糊的了

那時候，逝去的愛情終於變得美麗，不再有遺憾
我們害怕失去愛情
也許只是害怕失去對一個人甜蜜的『習慣』
或許換個角度 我們並不是真的失去『習慣』
而是試著習慣沒有那些習慣的生活
這，也是一種習慣

能清楚的區分欣賞 . 喜歡與愛的人
往往都是一發不可收拾的人
因為知道自己的愛
並非衝動之舉
所以不願輕許
如果給了
不會輕了

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[轉載] 隨身幸福

那個人喜歡你的時候，你不覺得自己喜歡他。 當他放棄的時候，你卻發現自己已經喜歡了他。這種遺憾不算不大吧？人便是這樣。被人喜歡的時候，我們多麼自恃？當他大獻殷勤的時候，我們無動於衷，也許還 驕傲地覺得對方不是太配得起自己。他儘管喜歡我吧，我可不是那麼容易追求的。 當對方暗示和探聽的時候，我們也假裝不在乎。 我是有很多人喜歡的。 愛上我的話，你也許要受折磨。 當對方對我們忠心耿耿的時候，我們認為那是理所當然的。 我的條件這樣好，他還能愛上別人嗎？當他積極的時候，我往往不置可否。 我真的喜歡他嗎？或者我可以遇到更好的。 他有很多缺點。 然而，當他變得消極；當他好像不再喜歡我，我卻著急了。他是不是以為我不會喜歡他呢？我完全沒有這個意思。我只是不想一切來得太快。 我唯有放下一點面子，向他暗示，我也是喜歡他的。然而，他忽然變得很冷淡了。 這個時候有什麼辦法挽救？

對不起，已經沒辦法了。

不 要可惜，既然大家不能同步，失去了也不是損失。 況且，你也許不是愛上了他，你只是不甘損失罷了。 如果你不是真的想離開一個人，那就最好不要隨便跟他說分手。當你後悔分手，想去挽回的時候，他也許不會讓你回去。我們說分手，有時是因為一時意氣。自己根 本不想分手，但對方聽你說分手一次又一次，有一次終於受夠了。 常說分手，是會破壞感情，只是你從來不在意。 你以為只有你會說分手嗎？永遠不要用分手來威脅人。 假如他也想分手，便正中下懷。 有時候，我們是真的不想繼續下去。 不是不愛他，而是前路太艱難，不知道怎麼 走。不如，我們分手吧！ 在感情最好的時候分手，我會永遠懷念你。 或許，我們還能夠做朋友。 說分手的是我。 然而，後來哭得最厲害的也是我。 我以為我可以離開你，原來我不能。當我去找你的時候，你卻說： 『我們還是分手吧。』 你不是捨不得我的嗎？ 你冷靜的說：『是你要分手的。我想得很清楚，這樣會對你好一點。』我才不要你為我著想。不可以假裝我沒有說過要分手嗎？

有些話，是收不回的。有些愛，是不能兒戲的。

喜 歡，就伸出手讓對方知道 感情，就是因為我們給了太多的理由和註解， 所以我們就照著別人所下的定義走著。我不喜歡太貼身的生活，但是一旦我愛上了他的時候，又不時的希望與他朝夕相處。那我到底做的對不對???有時候，很事 情無需用對或錯來分。 尤其在完全沒有公式的愛情世界中， 喜歡就是喜歡，不喜歡就是不喜歡。再怎樣的犧牲跟勉強都是得不到自己所要的。 茫茫人海中，你能找到幾個跟你是很相合的呢?? 個性、相貌、生活、談吐...我們都不時在每一次的見面中，為著自己的幸福 在替別人給分數， 好笑的是，對方也如此的對待自己。

100分!!!

100分的人到底去了甚麼地方?? 我們都一直找自己的100分對象，那自己又有幾分可以配得上人家?? 『算了~~我不要100分對象，找到了又怎樣呢??』 現在我已經放棄了尋找夢想。

隨身幸福!!

在 無慾無求生活中，或許就能遇上了另一半。 可能他不是100分，可能他不能陪你走到盡頭， 但是在這段的歲月中，也就是你找到自己的最佳方向。不管是愛或是需要，自己最清楚。 不要被心魔框住自己就此止步。 E世代的人真的很好玩，發明一些字來做為彼此溝通的方法， 就因為這些字，令自己更不敢跟別人溝通。 喜歡，就伸出手讓對方知道吧。

愛您就是因為愛您!!
感謝你給我的幸福

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[轉載] 真正愛你的男人，是...

抱起來很溫暖，囉唆起來很煩，在身邊討厭，看不見又很懷念的人。
吃剩下一半的麵不要浪費，他會接過去幫妳吃乾淨的人。
大冰腳貼在他大腿弄暖，他即使很冷，也不會把妳腳踢開的人。
一起去大賣場買東西，總是比妳多提兩大袋，還要空出手牽妳的人。
逛街，總是從頭到尾『良性勸導』妳不要亂花錢的人。
月經來，抓到妳偷吃紅豆冰，會很生氣罵妳的人。
妳生大病，他卻比你還要辛苦的人。
出門前，妳相信他的眼光多於鏡子的一個人。
把買衛生棉已經當成每個月記得採買的男人。
吵完架做錯事，還會厚臉皮跑來牽妳手的人。
過了n週年的戀愛紀念日後，就會忘記情人節、聖誕節存在的人。
為了看現場轉播的棒球大聯盟，敢把可愛的妳推到旁邊涼的人。
很少送妳花，卻常愛送妳垃圾袋、衛生棉、水果...的人。
沒事一定會窩在妳家，有事還是窩在妳家，讓妳開始懷疑他是不是沒有朋友的人。
最喜歡看妳開心的大笑，然後也對著妳傻笑的人。
漏接妳電話，就會打爆妳手機的人。
養妳吃飯、養妳看電影、養妳買小東西，動不動就開始為以後練習怎樣包養妳的>人。
最害怕討厭聽到妳啜泣，只要聽到妳哭，還是會不辭千里的飛奔到妳身邊的人。
偷偷的為妳做了很多事，卻從來不和你邀功的人。
已經認為自己的手臂是枕頭的人。
膽敢會和妳搶遙控器，最後卻只能陪妳看慾望城市的人。
老是可以讓周遭好朋友感到好奇的人。
他一不在，妳就會心煩意亂心不在焉，而開始很想念他的人 ....

親愛的女人..你身邊若有這樣一個男人...妳一定要珍惜!!

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My darling is on sell!!

YES... my darling is on sell on eBay. Don't get me wrong people, I'm not selling a person, what I meant by "darling" is my Sony Vaio laptop that has been with me for 5 years. It was my 18th birthday present and I have been using it for many assignments and for entertaining my boring life in U.K. I had a lot of different moments with my darling and it's just ashame that I have to sell it now. I hope it will be able to find a good home in the future. For anyone who is interested to go and have a look, please go to Sony Vaio laptop.

When I took it out the other day, a thought came across my mind that I should not sell my darling, I've treasured it dearly since the first day I've got it, that's why it is called my darling as that time I don't have a boyfriend, I spent most of my time with it. I just hope whoever receive it will treasure as much as I do and make good use of it.

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Shipping things home

Previously, we were thinking to send things home by Fedex, when we checked the price it was roughtly £145 per 25kg, I knew it would be expensive, but I just cannot believe it would be that expensive. Anyhow, we decided to browse around the Internet and ask our friends, we've sort of decided to send by surface (sea). The initial price that we saw on the Internet was £85 for the first box and £35 per box after. It also requires £25 for delivery charge, which we think it is quite reasonable, at least cheaper than shipping with Fedex. Therefore, I rang the shipping company to get a quote and ask in details about the shipment. Although this will be slower than Fedex, it will take 6 - 8 weeks but it is so much cheaper, which I think it is quite reasonable to use. The company seems to be quite good and with reasonable price.

I think we will be arranging them to deliver all the packing materials and start packing next week. Hopefully I can finish packing as soon as possible, however I think it could be difficult since I really don't like packing and I just don't like the fact that when I need something and it isn't handy at all. KitKit was quite happy that he can bring more things back home, i.e. his Virgin Voyager train model. And at least I don't have to worry too much about limiting my packing.

Anyways, for now I should go to bed, need to work today and will be off on Sunday. This coming Sunday, KitKit and his brother will be going to watch a football match and I won't be going with them, I just don't fancy football and I don't really enjoy watching it, so I said to him waste the money to get a ticket and watch something that I don't enjoy. I rather stay at home and to be online, I really don't mind spending a Sunday afternoon at home doing nothing but online or watching telly.

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All confirmed

I've finally got my air ticket to go back to Hong Kong, so everything is set as stone. I cannot change my mind anymore, everything is all confirmed. I think its the moment for me to realise that I really have to move back and these days where I don't have to work, I've been busy calling different phone calls, just to try to sort out everything i.e. cancel phone contract, call shipping company to quote and arrange collection. It's just unbelievable how busy you can be when you have to try and get everything sorted. I could spend hours on the phone these days just to try to get to speak to someone on the other end.

On one hand, purchased the ticket has another meaning to me, it just means that I'm no longer being able to run away from the problems that I've been running away from years. It would be time for me to face all of them. Some might say moving back to Hong Kong is a brand new start. However, for me going back is just facing my past, my nightmares. Therefore, for me when I moved to U.K five years ago, that was my new start. When I'm thinking about it, I just cannot believe how quick time passes.

It's already five years since I've left home and learn how to be independent, from don't even know how to cook to where I can cook a proper meal every night without too much of a problem. From a girl with all different kind of restrictions to having all the freedom in the world. From being single to where I've been in a relationship for at least 3 years. All these changes are just amazing, it's unbelievable how time can change one person, at least it did changed me (not by a little but a lot in many different ways). And had to say, I'm glad about what I am and what I had experienced. At least I wouldn't regret anything about the past five years, at least I would say to others that I had lived for myself for the past five years.

My experience in U.K has been nothing but great, I wouldn't recall any sad moment apart from all my closest friends left me after my first year, yet throughout all these years, I know a lot of great friends who always give me all the support and help whenever I needed. The most important thing, coming to U.K gave me the opportunity to meet you and bring us together. I do believe this is faith and I'm grateful that I have came over to study, I think without you I won't have stayed in this country for such a long time, I might have left after my undergraduate study and wouldn't completed my master degree.

I don't know why these days I just have a lot of these thoughts and feeling, perhaps its because I will be leaving this country within a month, where it just brought me to reflect my past. Hopefully, my blog wouldn't be as boring as such in the next month, I'll try to write something that is more interesting, however I cannot promise.

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Too many things to do, too little time...

For some reason I just kept on thinking that I have many things I need to do before I go home when I was at work earlier on today. In some ways, I came to the point to realise that I don't have many time in the company (only 6 shifts left). I just cannot believe that I've been working in the company for a year now, it's amazing how time goes by. I kept on looking at the calender trying to work out what I need to do before I go home, and it's not long till 17th November. I just cannot believe this, it's finally for me to go home after 5 years.

Here are the things that I need to do before I go home:

1. Go to London to see my old friends
2. Packing and packing
3. Check shipping company
4. Do shopping
5. Take pictures of my company
6. Take pictures of Lake district and places that I used to go
   

I think that is about it, although the list doesn't look too long, I still feel I have too many things to do, especially when I haven't really packed at all (I hate packing!!).

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Relationships...

~This is especially dedicated to you and to all my friends who are experiences hard time with their relationships~

These days I had quite a few friends who came to me and talked about relationship problems, either the guy/girl that they fancy never give a direct, straight forward yes or no answers or they just cannot make up the mind about who to choose. Otherwise, they are just not happy about their relationship at the moment because he/she thinks that their partner doesn't understand what he/she wants and need.

Personally I cannot see why relationship can be so complicated, the way how I see is where both of you are happy to be with each other and want to share their time together. Obviously, it must consist some kind of chemistry as well. However, the world isn't as simple as that as well all know. In a relationship, it always includes different elements, such as people and environment. However, I don't see why people need to give messages to other.

A very good example, someone will say I like to spend the time with you and I'm always happy when I spend time with you together. However, when it comes to the time to make up her mind whether if she wants to go out with this guy. She would rather choose someone else than him. I just cannot understand why she would make this kind of decision??!! Why does she needs to make things so complicated when it could be so simple.

Another example, a long distance couple where the girl finds her boyfriend doesn't understand what she wants and she is loosing faith on him. When I asked her what the problem was and all she said was when I want him to just be quiet and hear me moan, yet he gives advises and comments about it. On the other hand, where she needs him to comfort her, all he does is just providing solutions. I don't know if this is normal to all the guys, as this is something that happened to myself and I just think this is nature and normal. I don't see anything wrong when KitKit does that, perhaps I'm just used to it by now??!!

What I strongly believe is that no one is born to be without personality clashes, even with your best friend, you ain't start off without any problem. I believe that problems help to understand each other better and can help to avoid anymore personality clashes in the future. There are no perfect match for anyone (either friends or couple). I just think it takes time to build up, otherwise it wouldn't be called a relationship. The other thing I believe is in the end of the day, everyone will find their other half, it may needs awhile in order to do so, it might takes longer than other peoples needs to. However, your other half is always there and will be with you one day. It is just the matter of time before you can find your another half. And when you found him/her, it would mean is the best time, since you experienced and learned from all the crap and shit, so you know how to treasure your relationship when its there. I just want to say it to all my dear friends, don't give up and do not stop believing in love.

I know I ain't in the strongest position to say or comment on other people's relationship. And I wouldn't say I've experienced everything in the world. However my beliefs helped me in all my relationships and my experiences helped me to be a better me. I would say I'm a lucky one that I've met and found you. Thank you for everything that you have done and thank you for your love and tolerant.

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One month from today....

Finally booked my ticket for going back to Hong Kong, when I was looking at the calendar, I just realised that I have exactly 1 month time for me to get on the plane. One month from today, about this time, I will be in the airport checking in. I just cannot believe how quick time flies. I still remember a few months ago, I was saying I'm going home soon, but I just cannot believe I can actually see the date on the calendar.

A lot of people asked me whether I'm excited to be back home, to be honest I do have mix feelings about it. I'm excited the fact that I can do things that I wanted to do for a long time, i.e. shopping and karaoke. I 'm also excited to see my families again (apart thinking the fact that I might be not used to living with them again after all these years). However, on the other hand, I'm not looking forward at all because I know once I'm back in Hong Kong, it just means that it is time for me to face the problems that I had, I know that there will be some changes in my life style where it is going to be very difficult for me to coupe with. At the moment, I stop myself of thinking what it is like to be going back to Hong Kong, all I want is to enjoy every remaining moment that I have in U.K.

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Switzerland trip

It's been awhile since I have updated my blog, there are certain reasons for that. My first night in Switzerland I wasn't able to get on to Internet, second night my friend (Firepapillion) and I went to Wengen and stayed there for a night. Last night I was suppose write my blog but I just can't be bother at all, therefore I just left it until now. Anyways, it's my fourth day in Switzerland, for some reason I just can't be bothered to go out at all. Somehow I'm just very tired and not awake for the whole day, so kinda decided to stay at home and do nothing. I've been very busy running around and moving lugguage, so I guess its time to just do nothing. We were meant to go out to shop for chocolate too, but that didn't go well I guess. We went up to Jungfraujoch and I finally can see that breathetaking view that I heard all about it. I really want to visit there again and next time to get my foot to step on those think snow and actually step outside and be on top of Europe.

Anyways, my journey to Switzerland is without KitKit, and I find that very strange. This is the first time since we've been together that we didn't travel together (apart from those Oxford , London trips and the time where I was in Hong Kong and he was in U.K.) and in a different time zone, different country. I find it really strange and insecure and I guess I didn't enjoy myself as much as I would like to, since my mind is left with him at the moment. I just got used of him being next to me all the time now, especially for the past year. I just cannot imagine what will it be like when we move back to Hong Kong. Although we will be in the same time zone, under the same country code, same telephone network and within 50 miles apart. The thing that I realised in this trip was things are so different from before and now, I guess part of it got to do with the fact that I'm going back to Hong Kong soon, but also the thing about getting used to and being really comfortable with him. Therefore when he isn't around me I just felt so insecure, even for just a week I seriously missed him a lot (to the point that I never imagine). Life without KitKit.... hard to imagine...

Is all of my feelings are what people called "the peace before the storm" or "the sign of danger with our relationship"? I really don't know what does these all mean but I just don't want anything to happen as I think I'm finally being very comfortable in a relationship and I don't want anything to ruin it.

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Switzerland tomorrow

I'm going to Switzerland tomorrow, it just felt weird to go to travel without KitKit. Perhaps I'm just used to travel with him now. I'm going to see my best friend - Firepapillion and I won't be able to see KitKit for a week.... it is the longest time since I've moved last year.

Anyways, apart from this funny feeling, I'm very excited that I'm going to see her. I haven't seen her for awhile now and finally we can meet up again and catch up. That's gonna be great. I'm going to Jungfraujoch - top of Europe as it is famous for. I never been to the Swiss Alps, this will be very interesting.

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[Beauty Review] Mascara

I think I could say that I've many different mascaras but I think there isn't a brand (i.e. Chanel, Shiseido, Max Factor) that can bring me the effect that this brand can. Lancome, it is one of the best brand for mascara, I just cannot find any others that will be able to give me the length and the volume that I wanted. Although I always want to try other brand, it is always off-putting as I know that it won't be the same as any of the Lancome ones. In the Lancome range, I think one of the best is their Hypnose,
which it gives full volume and length to your lashes.

I know there is a new range - L' Extreme,
I cannot wait till I get my hands on it, so then I can provide a review to you all.

One tip about mascara, I've never use black mascara, it just helps the emphasis not just on your lashes only, but as well as your eye shadow. It won't give a strong look when people look at you, therefore i tend to use violet/purple. I find this color is more forgiving. And unlike blue, you can go to work with this color without people noticing its not black. Apart from the choice of color, I also use a base in order to enhance and boost the mascara. The one that I use is Cils booster XL,
this base is white and it helps to multiply and lengthen your lashes, so it primes a good base for your mascara to go on. It is just a great product!!

This is my first review, I hope this will be helpful, if you have any comments or feedbacks, please leave me a message and I will improve it in my future posting.

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A new idea

I had this ideas for awhile, but I just never get myself together to let it happen. At the moment, my blog is mainly about myself and things that happens around me. I want to make it a bit more than that, things that aren't just about me. I'm going to write reviews about different things that I have interest in, such as hotels, restaurants, beauty (makeup and skin care), technology etc. I want to share my views, tips and tricks with everyone, at least this will be quite interesting.

Although I did review some software before, it wasn't in great detail, it only illustrates the surface of the product. From now, it will includes my thoughts towards the product and its usability. I hope this can interest you all to read about it.

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[Share] A Friend....

(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up ! ! on you

(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over

(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life

(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits

(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you

(W)alks beside you
(X)-plains things you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality

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[Share] How to treat a woman and man?

How to treat a woman:

Wine her.

Dine her.

Call her.

Hold her.

Surprise her.

Compliment her.

Smile at her.

Listen to her.

Laugh with her.

Cry with her.

Romance her.

Encourage her.

Believe in her.

Pray with her.

Pray for her.

Cuddle with her.

Shop with her.

Give her jewelry.

Buy her flowers.

Hold her hand.

Write love letters to her.

Go to the ends of the earth and back again for her.

~ ~ ~

How to treat a man:

Show up naked.

Bring chicken wings.

Don't block the TV.

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October

I cannot believe that it is already the 1st of October, time just flies so quickly. In about a month's time, I will be going home FOR GOOD!! I just cannot believe time just goes by so quickly, I guess whenever you want the time goes slower, it just acts the opposite as what you want. I bet a lot of people will be looking forward to go back to a place with so much energy and vibrant Hong Kong, they might be even counting days, hours and cannot wait to leave this gloomy, rainy and boring U.K. I guess I am just the different one, I want to stay in this boring place so badly, I can have my freedom and enjoy the life that I want to live. Yet going back would mean another story...

Anyways, perhaps it's time for me to stop thinking about this whole issue of time and going back. I should look forward to my Switzerland trip which is coming up in a week's time. I hope at least this would cheer me up a bit.

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